In my own words...

I know that it's evil, I know that it's got to be.
No I ain't doin' much but doin' nothin' means a lot to me.
Livin' on a shoestring. A fifty cent millionaire.
Open to charity. Rock and roll welfare.
Sittin' in my Cadillac listenin' to the radio.
Suzie baby get on in and tell me where you wanna go.
I'm livin' in a nightmare. She's lookin' like a wet dream.
I got myself a Cadillac but I can't afford the gasoline.
I got holes in my shoes and I'm way overdue.
Down payment blues.

Love and cars eh? What did Warren Zevon say? Can't start it like a car and can't stop it with a gun. And if not for gals like Suzie baby, some guys, (maybe like me), would never

get myself a steady job. Some responsibilty.
Can't even feed my cat on social security.

It's not just any girl that has ME working for a living again though. I got a friend who's a workaholic. You mention work and he gets drunk. But seriously it IS love. A special old girl I met about 43 years ago. Yeah we've had our differences. I left her for a while. But like a Spinner, I was always workin' my way back to her.

Have I had a beer? Well, one. I decided not long ago that I drink too much. So I went to Alcoholics Anonymous. That helped a lot. I still drink but now I do it under an assumed name. So I went to the doctor. My doctor told me my urine sample was like the weather: warm and cloudy. And he found an olive in it. But I'm drinking beer tonight. It's beer only she could give me. And I just loaded up the wood stove and started a fire. Something I really missed about her.

No I wasn't a Player while I was overseas but she called me one day on the telephone and said, "Hello, how are you? Have you been all right? Through all those lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely nights?" Then she said, "Baby come back. You can blame it all on me. I was wrong and I just can't live without you." What could I do? I was in Exile over in Asia. In the heat of the moment she said, "I never meant to be so bad to you. One thing I said that I would never do. One look from you and I would fall from grace. And that would wipe the smile right from my face." Like a Queen she made me feel I wanted to break free. I wanted to break free from the lies and the self-satisfied God knew I had to break free. So I came home to light her fire. I'd been thinkin about her for 15 years she was my one desire. The minute I saw her I knew she could see it in my eyes I could feel it in her touch. She didn't have to say a thing just let me show how much I love her, need her. So I kissed her all over and over again till the night closed in.

Of course I'm talking about Canada. She's such a beautiful country! I looked out this morning and the sun was gone. Turned on some music to start my day. I lost myself in a familiar song. I closed my eyes and I slipped away. I tell you it's more than a feeling when I hear that old song playing. I begin dreaming and I see Korea walk away. I closed my eyes and she slipped away. She slipped away. Haaaiiiiyyyy!!!!

Now I've got the peace of mind I've been looking for. Everybody's got advice they just keep on givin. Doesn't mean that much to me. Lots of people out to make a legal living and can't decide what they should be. Oh I understand about indecesion and I don't care if I get behind people living in competition. All I want is to have my peace of mind.

Of course if the money comes I'll take it. I'll tell you a story. The following is a true story only the names have been changed to protect the guilty. I got holes in my shoes I got holes in my teeth I got holes in my socks I can't get no sleep. I'm trying to make a million. And I got patches on the patches of my old blue jeans. Well they USED to be blue when they used to be new, when they used to be clean. It ain't no fun waiting round to be a millionaire. But that's what I'm doing back in Canada. So far.

It's 6 in the morning and I've been up typing this and listening to tunes all night. Never woulda guessed that would ya? But that's because I'm working the midnight shift. Anyway, I'm gonna keep on doing what I'm doing. Because I wanna rock and roll all night and party ev er ry day.